By: Lisa AKA FireStar
Disclaimer: Star Trek in all its forms belongs to the corporations and others.
No profit will be made by this fan fiction by others or me. It may not be
bought or sold. This is just for our enjoyment and to tie up loose ends that
drove me crazy.
Rating : PG-13
Archive: Selek Yes anyone else just let me know where.
Summary: Pride in accomplishments makes certain Vulcans acknowledge their
feelings. Amanda gains insight to her mate's logic.
IDIC- Solutions:
A Mother's Understanding
Amanda Grayson watched with avid curiosity as he husband of over forty years
observed the pomp and ceremony of a human graduation. She wondered how it was
that they had come to this place at this time and moreover she wanted to
understand why now? What was the logic in this sudden
approval of Starfleet?
Sarek had disowned their only son Spock for entering this very same academy and
they had spent the next eighteen years estranged
because of his choice. Yet ,here Sarek stood watching
an other graduate with the pride a father might show. A pride he should have
had for his son. Amanda watched as Saavik her beloved Son's metee
crossed the stage to accept her diploma. The young woman was a favorite of Amanda's and she had come to consider the young
woman almost as her daughter. At one point Amanda had even considered adopting
this wild child. Sarek however had been adamant in his refusal.
"No my wife we will not adopt Saavik! I refuse to consider it. You may
offer the child the comfort of our home and our support but she will not become
our legal daughter in this way." Amanda had wanted to argue but the firm
look on her husband's face warned it would be a wasted effort.
"My wife Spock is fond of this child. I would not have him thinking I seek
to interfere in his raising of it. He has chosen this Halfling as his protégée
and I refuse to interfere."
Amanda had backed down believing at the time Sarek had meant well even if she
did not agree. She had assumed Sarek had not wanted to make the situation
between he and Spock any more strained. Amanda had said not more on the
subject. As always her husband ruled their lives and she wondered if even then
he had been thinking of this possibility.
Amanda watched as her beloved son's eyes never left the girl. Over the years
she had watched Saavik follow Spock around like a puppy and she knew he had let
this scared child in. Spock was in many ways the ultimate Vulcan. The years of
estrangement from his father and home world had made him a strong individual.
Spock had become on his own merit as much of a legend as Sarek. Amanda
also knew that Spock let very few into his heart and soul. She knew that
because of the estrangement Starfleet and the Crew of the
Why show pride in this child when he had rejected his own?
Then she looked back and noticed the way Saavik looked at Spock for an instant.
She felt the pieces fall into place. Of course it all made sense now. How could
she have missed the most obvious thing? She wanted to laugh and cry at the same
time. Her husband and son had finally found something to agree on or rather
someone. Saavik was perfect for Spock. She had risen by her own merit and was a
strong woman. Her loyalty was unquestionable and she was as a well forged
blade. Of course Sarek would approve. If Saavik was around Spock would always
be safe and Secure. That had been the reason for
Sarek's refusal to accept Spock's career choice the danger he had placed
himself in. Spock was the last in his line and Sarek had sought the
continuation of the House of Surak because it was Vulcan. It had been fear that
had made Sarek so intractable and pride that had refused to allow Spock to bend
either. Spock refused the constraints placed upon the heir and sought his
own destiny. Amanda had been torn between her love for Sarek and her love for
Spock unable to bridge the gap and unwilling to risk losing either.
In the last years they had found some common ground and this child had oddly
been the key. Ironic when Amanda recalled how opposed Sarek had once been to
taking the hybrid children back to Vulcan. Sarek had know
that the children of Hellguard would be a challenge
to his world. In the end Spock's logic had prevailed and the children had been
fostered. Spock had remained in contact with all the children but this Saavik
was special. Amanda had been drawn to the child at once. There was a savagery
and nobility to this child that was most impressive to see. Of course the
child's defiance of Sarek for chastising Spock had one her place in Amanda's
heart at once. She still smiled at that memory.
Flashback Vulcan 10 years earlier…
Sarek looked away and at his wife. He recalled the fears. "Will you adopt
the child then?"
"If I was married I would. A child needs two parents." Spock said He
stood his ground anger barely contained. His rage showed in his stance.
"Spock you can not do this." Sarek had faced off with his son his
voice loud and commanding. "It would not be the best for the child. How
can you raise her when you are away in space?"
Saavik running up and kicking Sarek in the leg.
"No yell at Spock."
Amanda had walked to Sarek to calm him
down .She had been shocked to see the child fly at her mate. Sarek had
been taken aback by the attack and been forced away from their son. The child
had stood between them glaring angrily and then Amanda had froze
as a blade appeared.
"No hurt Spock. Shut your mouth." This followed by an almost feral
growl. "My Spock .guard him from you! You no hurt
anymore!"
Amanda had been pleased to see the child defend her son but afraid at the
knife. She remembered Spock's reaction. Her son had been so gentle and caring.
"Saavik no." Spock had caught the child
before she could inflict more damage. He held the shaking child to him.
"Sarek only fears for your well being."
Saavik had glared at them her body between them and Sock. "He hurt...You
hurt inside."
Amanda recalled the stunned look on Sarek's face and then the look of
admiration.
"She is very protective of you my son."
"Indeed." Was all Spock had said The look of
wonder that this child was so much his. That Saavik cared for his well being
and was willing to defend him with deadly force.
Amanda remembered the look and then the latter conversation. Saavik had won
Sarek's respect that day for not only herself but for Spock as well. It was as
if her husband finally saw the man her son had become. A man even a wild child
would defend.
Amanda had no illusions then or now when it came to Saavik she would defend
Spock to the death. Then again Amanda understood that feeling all to well
herself. Had she not always protected Sarek even at the cost of her son. She sighed and wondered why Vulcan males were so
demanding of their mates. Forty years latter she was still uncertain to this
reason but only knew she loved Sarek more then her own life.
Now ten years latter she watched as Sarek seemed to be planning something. She
sighed as she saw opened her mind to his. What she saw should have shocked her,
instead it pleased her. He had not rejected Saavik as she had believed no.
instead he had seen what her future role in his house would be. A daughter by marriage. Her mate was indeed a patient male.
She remembered his promise not to force Spock after his last bonding. She moved
to his side.
She remembered his words.
"...she will not become our legal daughter in this way."
Yes ,Sarek had decided even then that Saavik was to
belong to their son. He had chosen to allow Spock to mold
Saavik into his perfect mate while he never even realized he had been doing
that. Saavik had been welcomed in their home to learn her place and role even
as he denied making her place legal. No he had wanted Saavik as a bond-mate for
his son so she could not become his sister / daughter by adoption.
Spock was pleased with his father's look of pride and wondered how different it
might have been if Sarek could have bent for him?
"Saavik you do your mentor and Vulcan proud. I could not be more pleased
if you were my own daughter."
"I am honored sir." Came
the shy and low but polite answer. Saavik looked down as she recalled their
first meeting. She was not ashamed of protecting Spock but she should not have
attacked Sarek.
Spock nodded to his family. His Pride at Saavik's
achievements very much in evidence.
Sarek looked at Spock thinking. {I am proud of them both. If only they would
unite and make our house strong and viable again. }
Amanda took her mates fingers and smiled. Sometimes the great diplomat was not
so subtle. Sometimes she had to even agree he was right.
Sarek resolved to assist them after all it was only logical that both his pride
and his joy be one house and one person a family.
"Saavik be perfect for Spock." Amanda said She
removed her restrictions on his interference.
"I concur and so it shall be." Sarek said smiling down at his beloved
wife.
Amanda watched as her two Vulcan's showed more emotion then she had seen in
over forty years. She smiled broadly and looked at the object of this emotion
standing between them as a bridge. Amanda then knew even if she had not
loved Saavik before she did now. She was her daughter in all but name. Smiling
she walked to her family and knew deep in her soul it really was only a matter
of time until that to became a reality. One just had to be patient with
Vulcan's and love them no matter how stubborn they could be.