I'm not sure if I've posted this before or
not. I don't see it in the archives, but I was going through my files
tonight and found this, and it seems to be finished...so... Hope you like it.
Title: Experiment
Author: Saidicam29
Rating: R
Pairing: Sa/Am
Summary: A short ficlet that explores Sarek's
"logical thing to do" comment from JTB in a little bit different way
and tries to tie up some canonical loose ends.
Disclaimer: Sigh...ya know what...Gene is gone,
and now Majel....Jane and Mark are gone...to hell with any disclaimers.
Ok, you know what...I am only borrowing what IMO now belongs only to Rod
Roddenberry.
**~~**
He thrust into her, over and over, breathing deeply against the crook of her
neck. He felt her move beneath him, her hips lifting to meet him, but she
remained oddly quiet. Drawing his knees under him slightly he thrust
harder, felt her nails bite into his back in response, but still there was
silence. Perplexed, Sarek released a deep breath and raised his head to
check on her. Her face was turned from him, her
eyes squeezed tightly shut and her bottom lip crushed harshly between her
teeth.
"Is something wrong?"
Amanda's eye popped open, startled.
"No." She brushed her tongue across her bruised lips.
"Am I not pleasing you tonight?" He reached out to brush some
slightly dampened tendrils off her cheek.
"Of course you are!" She squirmed beneath his weight, so Sarek
adjusted his weight onto one elbow. "Why?"
"You are not making noise."
A blush crawled over her features. "Neither are you."
"Yes, however," Sarek surrendered to his body's urgings and thrust
gently into her again, causing her to gasp, "I never do. You, so
far, always have."
"And you made fun of me for it." She placed a hand against his
shoulder and pushed slightly.
Sarek ignored it. "I did not."
"You sure did! You were practically laughing at me!" She
pushed again, harder. He did not move.
"That is a fabrication."
"Move, please?"
"We have not finished," he implored.
Amanda grimaced. "I'm finished."
With an impatient sigh Sarek rolled off her. Amanda got up, slid into her
robe and wrapped it tightly around her. She sat at the end of her bed,
her back to Sarek.
"I did not 'make fun' of you. I merely mentioned the sounds because...I
was unaccustomed to such a reaction."
"Well now I'm self-conscious about it."
Sarek got onto his knees and crawled to the bed of the bed. Kneeling
behind her brushed her hair away from the nape of her neck and leaned in
close. "I enjoy your noises." Seeing no sign of
rejection, he leaned in to press his lips against her neck. "I like
knowing that I am pleasing you." Amanda turned toward him, staring
deeply into his eyes, and Sarek felt a swirl of anticipation take flight in the
pit of his stomach. Perhaps the evening was not lost after all.
"I've been talking with the other girls in the program."
The swirl spun into a fiery crash...one that rose up into his chest in a bitter
taste of indigestion. "Indeed." Sarek sat back on his
rump, knowing this was not going to move in the direction he had hoped.
"The other girls have only been...um...participating once or twice a
month, when the ovulation tests indicate it. You've been coming over once
or twice a week."
"I thought you enjoyed my visits."
Amanda shook her head, her face contorting in frustration. "That's
not the point." She stood to face him then spun her back to him
again.
Sarek took note of his naked form and flipped the blanket over his waist. Despite their activities the past few months,
she still found it uncomfortable when he was completely bare to her.
"Amanda, those other couples are virtual strangers to each other.
When I was asked to participate in this program, I asked you to join me
specifically because we were already acquaintances. It was to make this
easier for us. However, as there is only a very finite period of time
human females can conceive each month, and many conditions that must be exact
for conception to occur, it stands to reason that the more we increase the...opportunity
for my genetic material to be present at the time your genetic material is
susceptible for conception, the better our chances for success."
"They keep warning us about becoming attached. They always remind us
that the men in the program are almost all married, or committed in some
way."
"That is true."
"Maybe," she sighed loudly, "maybe our friendship is making
things more difficult."
"Do you wish to withdraw from the program?"
She turned to him then, her face lifted hopefully. "Has anyone else
withdrawn?"
"No."
Her face fell. "Oh." She stared down at her hands, which
were twisting nervously at her waist. "No, I don't want to
withdraw. I gave my word."
"I," Sarek shook his head, "I do not, will not, settle for
you tolerating my touch out of some obligation you feel to the Vulcan
government."
"It's not like that, Sarek." She came over and sat back on the
bed. "You know our time together is," she smiled at him
demurely, "it's very nice."
"Then it is your wish that I reduce my visits?"
Amanda shrugged. "I don't know."
"Amanda, if you are having issues with maintaining adequate detachment in
this, have you considered how much more difficult it may be when you carry my
child?"
"If," she reiterated.
Sarek bowed slightly to concede her point. "If, then. The
question remains the same."
Amanda nodded solemnly. "When you asked me to do
this, you made it seem so simple. And it still seems simple.
Two friends, with similar philosophies, conceive and raise a child."
"On Vulcan," Sarek reminded her. "Do not forget you have
agreed the child will be raised in the Vulcan way, if possible."
"I know. I look forward to it. It seems almost ideal,
really. Friends rarely come to hate each other the way spouses do.
At least as they do here. And to be raised on a planet without the
bigotry and hate that exists everywhere else. What do you call it? Infinite
differences in…"
"Infinite Diversity in Infinite Combinations," he corrected
her. "That is the idea, at least. The absence of such strong emotion
does enable people to act more logically."
"Then it's my fault. I'm complicating things."
Sarek moved further down the bed, to sit beside her. "We were
informed that many human females have difficulty separating physical couplings
from emotional ones. Do not blame yourself. It is your
biology."
"I'm weak."
Sarek studied her a moment. "No. I would not use that word to
describe you."
Amanda smiled mischievously. "Then how would you describe me?"
Sarek stiffened under her scrutiny. "I would describe you as a Human,
female,
22 Standard years of age—"
"That's not what I meant." She
swatted his arm playfully. "And you know it." The couple
sat in contemplative silence for several minutes.
"I believe I am expected to dress and take my leave now."
Amanda glanced over to meet his eyes. "Would you mind?"
"This is not how I expected my evening to end," he tilted his head in
a shrug, "but you have much to consider, and need privacy to do
so." He tossed aside the cover and padded across the room to his
clothes and began to dress.
"I wonder if they would let us do this artificially?"
Sarek glanced at her briefly then leaned against the wall to pull on his socks.
"Do you think we should ask?"
"It has already been done artificially." He picked up his boots
and took them to the bed so he could sit to put them on. "They have
managed Human/Vulcan embryos in a laboratory setting, although I understand it
is difficult. The purpose of this experiment is to see if our people
could breed successfully through natural means."
"I don't get it. What difference does that make?"
Sarek set his boots down and turned towards her. "You recall that my
race nearly caused its own extinction?" At her nod he
continued. "As a result, out of concern that we could repeat our
errors, we have developed an exacting culture, regimenting our lifestyles to a
minute degree."
"And it's worked. Your people are the only truly peaceful race in
our existence. It may be hard, I can only
imagine how hard it is for you, but surely worth the effort?"
"I am not arguing that, Amanda, but it is not necessarily
enough." His lips curled ever so slightly at the corners.
"Vulcans tend to be somewhat alarmist. Despite our many millennia of
peaceful existence, my people are always concerned with how we will survive, as
a species, if something should occur."
Now Amanda's mouth curved into a grin. "So their plan is to swoop up
all the human females?"
"Not all, surely."
"Don't you think the human men will have something to say about
that?"
Sarek sat up straighter, his brow raising
challengingly. "I do not believe that is of much concern to
us."
Amanda laughed. "Tsk. Such arrogance."
"Merely stating a fact," Sarek countered.
"The question is," Amanda grabbed a pillow from behind her and laid
down, clutching the pillow to her chest, "are you stopping for awhile, or forever?"
"Is that what you want? Forever?"
"I'm not talking about me; but no woman wants to raise a child
alone."
"On Vulcan no one raises a child alone regardless of their martial
status."
"Yes, I've heard. And that's nice, but our women want more than just
financial support. We want a companion to raise our children with."
Sarek leaned back so he lay beside her, raised on one elbow to look down at her
face. "A companion, or a mate?"
"That's semantics. Invariably a companion becomes a mate at
some point."
Sarek nodded. "I am hardly in a position to dispute that, am
I?" She smiled and shook her head in agreement. He reached out
to remove her pillow protection. "Speaking of positions, we seem to
be back to where we began."
"You have a one track mind, Vulcan."
"Perhaps, but it makes me more efficient." He saw her roll her
eyes. "Should I leave?"
"You can stay, if you want."
Sarek leaned over her, reaching out to pull the closure of her robe open. "I want."
**~~~****
Sarek allowed himself a moment to soak up Vulcan's sun before sliding the card
key into the reader that would allow him entry into the dormitory the program's
remaining females were housed in. He was surprised at the level of
security the women were being granted. It had taken him nearly three v'hrals to gain
access to the compound, and then only with the help of his father's influence
as Ambassador. He closed the door behind him, having to wait to allow his
eyes to adjust to the dim interior. All the windows were closed, shades
down blocking out virtually all daylight. The climate controls were set
low, enough so that Sarek regretted not having worn his warmer tunic.
No one came to greet him, so he hesitantly moved into the adjacent room in
search of one of the occupants. He found three. There were three
obviously pregnant females seated in the lounge. Two sat on a couch
watching the vid, and the third sat in a rocking
chair making something out of yarn. All three noticed his arrival, but
none offered a greeting. In fact, Sarek had the distinct impression they
were watching him with something akin to anger. Amanda was not among them.
"I wish to speak with Amanda."
"She's in her room." The rocking chair woman answered
brusquely. "Down the hall, second room on the
left."
Sarek nodded slowly. "Am I permitted to visit her room?"
"Could hardly do more damage than's
already been done."
Sarek stared at the surly woman a moment then move past the
them without another word. He walked to the aforementioned door
and knocked quietly.
He heard her beckon and stepped inside, closing the door behind him for
privacy. Amanda lay on her bed, on her side, facing the door. Her
stomach was obviously distended. Her eyes widened upon seeing him, but
she did not greet him as he expected. Rather she seemed to shrink back,
and her expression very much resembled those of her companions.
"I just this morning arrived." At first she said nothing, and
Sarek wondered if it were possible she did not hear. "Amanda?"
"What took you so long?" she spat at him.
"It took time for my transfer to go through. Much
longer than I had anticipated." He walked further into the
room, studying her. "You look much different. Have you been
well?"
Tears welled up in her eyes and leaked onto her cheek. "No, I
haven't been well. I've been horrible! I haven't seen my feet in
weeks, although I'm told they've swelled up to twice their size. My back
hurts. I'm constantly being poked and prodded, and I'm on more drugs than
I can count, all of which make keeping down food all but impossible.
There have been thirteen miscarriages since I've come here and two
deaths." Her tears ran freely now, months of tension coming to a
head at once. "And I've been alone through all of it."
"I am sorry this has been difficult." Sarek picked up a chair
sitting at her desk and placed it beside her bed then took a seat.
"I came as soon as I could, but you were not alone."
"We were all alone!"
"That is not logical, Amanda."
"Oh, shut up." With obvious effort she rolled to turn her back
to him.
"Those words are offensive," he reprimanded. "Do not speak
to me that way."
"Lying is offensive! Trickery is offensive. How dare you
lecture me on mannerisms?"
"What is this you speak of? No one has tricked you."
She turned onto her back to face him. "We were all tricked.
This isn't about our people coming together; it's about using us as
surrogates. These babies aren't ours. We aren't going to be allowed
to keep them."
"Wait, Amanda, please." Sarek reached out to take her hand in
his, hoping to provide a calming influence, but she pulled away.
"Did you know, Sarek? Were you a part of this from
the beginning?"
"I know nothing of which you speak; but Vulcans do not lie, Amanda."
"Oh, I know. We've heard that countless times in the months we've
been held captive here. Vulcan may not lie, but they do 'withhold the
truth', don't they?"
"Held captive?" Sarek shook his head.
"Please, start from the beginning. I cannot make any sense from your
words."
"You know the beginning!" Amanda tossed her head side to side
in frustration. "Right after our pregnancies were confirmed we were
brought to Vulcan because, apparently, this is the only place we could receive
adequate care."
"Yes, and you knew this would be the case before we began. You
expressed eagerness for this as you wanted to see Vulcan; you wanted to do some
studies here."
"I know that!"
"Very well," Sarek soothed. "Carry on, please."
"As soon as we got here they started loading us up on all these
drugs. I don't know what they were but they insisted we needed
them. All I know is they made all of us very sick. Then they
started doing...procedures." Tears
welled up again, but she kept them from spilling. "At first we
didn't think anything of it, when it was the first couple of girls. But
then it was all of us. All of us having the exact same complication, needing the exact
same intervention. That seemed odd, and it was painful...so
painful. They went inside us.
They did something to the baby, changed it.
"That's when everyone started having miscarriages. One right after another. Every couple of days one of us
would be whisked from here bleeding, crying in pain. And they never came
back, Sarek. We didn't know what happened to them, but there's
only two options, really. Assuming it's not the worst, and all those
women died, then it could mean only one thing. Once these babies are out
we won't be allowed to stay."
Sarek opened his mouth to respond, but decided against it. He would let
her finish her story then he could calm all her fears.
"We couldn't understand why they would do that. It wasn't until one
of the women went into sudden labor, at the dormitory,
and actually gave birth before they got here that we saw it. Sarek, there
was nothing human in that baby. Nothing at all.
Then some of the girls started intentionally giving birth here, wanting to see
their babies before they saw it, before they could do anything. They were
all the same...all large, all beautiful, but all Vulcan...and all dead."
An errant tear fell down her cheek, she hastily wipe it away. "They
were mad at us. As our punishment we aren't allowed to leave the campus
without a Vulcan escort. And now we have these medi-chips
in us, so they will know the moment we start labor
and can come get us." She looked up at Sarek, his eyes hooded and
dark. "I told you we were captives."
"Are the four of you all that remain?" he asked. At her nod he
sighed deeply. "I regret that this experience has been so terribly
difficult for you, Amanda." He reached up to wipe away another of
her tears. "But I fear you are succumbing to the uninformed and
irrational fears of your companions."
"Irrational!"
He cupped her face with his hand, brushing his thumb affectionately cross her
lips. "It is hardly surprising that there are some inherent
complications involved in combining Human and Vulcan genetics that would
require extensive, and apparently uncomfortable, interventions."
"There's no combining—"
"Based on what, Amanda? The infant's appearance?
You know better," he chided. "Does the blue eyed human suspect
an infant is not hers when the child has brown eyes? Physical appearance
does not indicate one's genetic makeup. I suspect Vulcan genetics are
simply dominate in these cases." He placed
his hand upon her bulging belly. "This child is yours, put there by
me. Nothing more." Sarek felt a
ripple beneath his palm, then a distinctive push against him. "I
feel him moving," he murmured reverently, his eyes lighting up at the
experience.
"Don't get used to it," Amanda warned. "It will be dead
soon."
Sarek's face tightened, his expression closed. "Such thinking is not
productive."
"Why would I be any different than the others?" She pushed
herself to a sitting position. "Okay. Let's just say, for
argument's sake, that you are correct; and we've been grossly
overreacting. That doesn't change the other facts. That each of us
has been deported as soon as the pregnancy was over."
"I do not imagine many human women would wish to remain here with no
reason to keep them."
"Without saying good-bye?"
Sarek nodded. "I see your point; that would be
uncharacteristic. However, perhaps they were concerned that seeing those
women afterwards could have detrimental effects on your emotional
wellbeing?"
"Why are you making excuses for them?"
"I am not. I am only suggesting possible Vulcan points of view to
explain their motivations to you."
"Then explain these medi-chips, and explain why
I am stuck here for the remainder of this pregnancy."
"It seems to me," Sarek began gently, "that during the course of
this experiment several of the ladies have made dangerous and possibly deadly
decisions. I must admit after hearing your story I am rather comforted by
the knowledge that you are under constant monitoring. But you are not
captive, I promise you. If you want to leave, you can." He
watched her, her indecision clear to see in her expression. "Do you want
to return to Earth?"
"If I do, the baby will have no chance of survival."
Sarek nodded. "However, if you are expecting that result anyway, and
for a child you believe is not yours to begin with, then what difference does
that make?" Amanda shook her head. "You are
frightened," Sarek took her hand and placed it upon her stomach, keeping
his hand covering hers, "but you know this child is ours, and you would
never do anything that might harm him. I regret that I did not come
sooner. I could have made this much easier for you."
"How long are you staying?"
"For several months. I have been
transferred to the diplomatic tract, and have returned to undergo my
training."
"You'll be here when I go into labor?"
"I will be by your side the entire time, if you wish."
Amanda threw her arms around Sarek's neck and hugged him tight. "I'm
so glad you're here."
Sarek loosely folded his arms around Amanda. "I wish to make this
easier for you, in any way I can."
"Thank you."
Sarek pushed her back from him, looking into her eyes. "For now, I
think you have been confined to this campus too long. Where would you
like to go today?"
"Anywhere! And I'm in no hurry to come back!"
**~~**
Sarek arose from his mediations to an insistent banging somewhere in his
home. Listening, he realized someone was striking at his front
door. He rose to his feet, wondering if entrance chimes had malfunctioned
in some way. As he made his way to the front of the house he began to
hear his name being shouted, screeched was perhaps a more accurate term, amidst
the banging. It was Amanda. Sarek picked up his pace, imagining
what his neighbors must be thinking of this display.
He opened the door to a sweaty, distressed, gravid Amanda.
"I was afraid you weren't home!" she exclaimed, storming past him
into the house.
Sarek closed the door and followed her to the kitchen, where she had procured a
cold cloth and was pressing it against her overheated skin. "You
cannot have such displays. It will not be tolerated here," he
reprimanded as he retrieved a glass from his cupboard and filled it with cold
water for her. "You will become dehydrated," he warned,
pressing the glass into her hand.
"It won't matter, I won't be here." She put the glass on his
table and pulled a parchment from the pocket of her maternity shirt.
"Look what they sent me."
Sarek took the form from her, noting her breathless, pained expression as she
rubbed her hand across her stomach. He rolled open the letter, his brow
raising as he read its contents. Amanda's student visa had expired, and
she was to report to the space station in forty-eight v'hrals for transportation back
to Terra. Sarek rolled the sheet back up. "This is obviously
an error."
"Oh yeah, it's an error all right. They didn't expect I'd go past my
due date and expired my visa anyway." She
stiffened again, clutching her belly.
"Perhaps you should sit," Sarek pulled a chair from his table.
"No, it feels better when I stand. I'm all right, just crampy." She took a sip from the glass of
water. "What are we going to do? You said they wouldn't do
this. You promised!"
"It would not due to jump to conclusions." Although
he now was also having his doubts about his government's intentions.
"I'm not! Sarek, how can you deny this still?" A sudden,
severe, cramp wracked her body, doubling her over in pain. Sarek rushed
forward to support her. "Oh my god, my water just broke."
He glanced down and saw the growing wet area on her pants. Amanda looked
up at him, panicked. "They're going to know. They're going to
come for me. What are we going to do?"
"We are going to remain calm; and we are going to accompany them back to
the compound."
"No!"
"We must. You are in labor, Amanda.
We need medical assistance."
"No. I don't trust them. I don't want to go there.
Something will happen, I just know it."
"You are letting your fears control you."
"Please, Sarek." She grabbed his tunic, desperately pulling at
him. "Take me someplace else. There are other doctors, other
hospitals."
"There are other hospitals, but they do not treat non-Vulcans. And
the medi-chip would still lead them to you."
Amanda released him sitting heavily into one of the kitchen chairs. "Then that's
it. I'm at their mercy." She clenched, working through another
contraction, this one strong enough to bring tears to her eyes. "They're
going to send me away. They're going to take my baby from me."
"No. That will not happen." Sarek watched her
helplessly. He could help her through the physical pain, but it was her
emotional turmoil that tortured them both. "I give you my word that
you will not be separated from this child."
Amanda reached out to him, and he took her hand in his. "Don't make
promises you can't keep. My faith in your government, in your people, has
been shaken; but I couldn't stand losing my faith in you too."
Sarek crouched down beside her, making them level. "I promise.
I have an idea. I cannot guarantee we will find help there, and if they
should turn us away I do not know if there will be time—"
"Take me. I don't care where it is, as long as it's not back
there."
With a grim nod Sarek scooped Amanda into his arms and took her to his flitter.
**~~**
Sarek led Amanda to a stone bench and helped her to lie down. He removed
his outer robe to use as a pillow as they waited. Amanda's pains were
coming quickly now, her pain intense. In the hours since they left his
home Sarek's mind retraced all that he knew of this. What his government
had told him, what Amanda has said. It did not seem possible, and yet he
could not deny he was giving more and more credence to Amanda's beliefs as time
went on. And if she was right, he had to protect her. Her and their
child, if it was their child. No, it was not possible that science could manipulate
DNA to such extremes as to remove nearly half a child's make-up. Was it?
The sound of wood scraping across stone alerted Sarek that someone was entering
their catacomb. He stood to meet them, subconsciously placing himself
between Amanda and the doorway. Upon seeing Priestess T'Rea before him,
Sarek released a sigh of relief, earning him a cursory brow raise from his
former wife.
"Your presence is unexpected, Sarek'am.
After all these years, you have need of me?"
"I do, T'Rea. Forgive my intrusion, but I would not have come if it
were not urgent. I require your assistance." He moved to the
side and gestured to Amanda.
T'Rea stared at Amanda for several moments, assessing her, then
turned her attention back to Sarek. "I do not understand."
"She is about to give birth. She needs help."
"I can see that, but why bring her here? I know nothing of Q'uomi
physiology."
"It is not so different than ours. I cannot take her
elsewhere."
"Why not?"
Sarek look away uncomfortably. "It is complicated." He
looked at Amanda, her agony, and her bravery. Her attempts to control and
conceal her pain were excruciating, and very obvious. She knew nothing of
where they were, or who this woman was, but she was trying not to embarrass
him, of this he was certain. She honored
him. "The child is mine," he admitted, straightening his spine
and staring directly into T'Rea's eyes.
This time both her brows raised, and she looked towards the exit, no doubt
wishing to escape. "I can explain," Sarek offered.
"Not necessary," T'Rea stopped him, holding a palm up to punctuate
her decree. "I will assist, but I cannot guarantee success."
"No one can, particularly in our case." Sarek bowed to
her. "We are indebted to you."
"I come to serve," T'Rea intoned, bowing.
"Your service honors us," Sarek offered the
traditional response in return.
"See to your woman, Sarek'am. I will
collect my supplies."
Sarek watched T'Rea leave, then turned to Amanda, who
was watching as well. "She has agreed to help us," he explained.
"Who is she?"
T'Rea returned with two basins of water, one of which she handed to Sarek.
"A friend," Sarek answered, catching T'Rea dubious glance. He
took the basin from her, noticing the cloth inside, which he wrung out and
began bathing Amanda's face and neck.
**~~**
Sarek stood by, watching T'Rea positioned at Amanda's feet, urging her to push
the infant out. It had been hours of this, pushing,
relaxing, pushing some more. He heard T'Rea assuring Amanda
progress was being made, but he wasn't so sure. Should it take this
long? Surely Amanda could not withstand this much longer.
He'd said nothing since the delivery process had begun. In part because he did not wish to interfere in the women's' work,
to disrupt their concentration. And in part because all his doubts
had come raging to the surface, all the assurances he's given Amanda
forgotten. What if they did, indeed, intend to deport Amanda from the
planet? Could he actually stop them? And what was about to come
forth from Amanda's loins? Was it a hybrid, a creation of Amanda and himself; or something else, something…engineered?
Amanda's cry of agony pulled him from his reverie, startling him. A fist
clenched his heart as he saw her collapse onto the bench, exhausted. He
turned to T'Rea for help, but she was otherwise occupied. Her back was to
him, but then she turned, and in her arms she held the infant. He, and it
was definitely a he, had dark eyes and hair, and tiny pointed ears that could
only be of his people.
"Sarek, your son." T'Rea held the boy
up for Sarek to see.
Sarek stepped closer, studying the infant, but could not detect a single human
trait. Then the baby began to struggle in T'Rea's
hands, his tiny elfin face crumpled, then his mouth opened to emit the strongest
cry of outrage Sarek had ever witnessed in such a tiny body. Taken aback,
Sarek could only stare as T'Rea pushed the child at him to be rid of it.
Sarek held him strongly in his hands and only one thought occurred to him as
the contact allowed his mind to touch the infant's fragile thoughts.
"So human," he murmured incredulously.
Some instinct, either a never realized ability to nurture or a telepathic sense
of the child's needs, caused Sarek to cradle the infant against his chest and
immediately he quieted, nuzzling against him. Sarek glanced over to see
T'Rea watching them, a strange expression on her face
until she noticed his stare, then it was gone.
"She did well, Sarek'am. She needs rest
now, but expresses a desire to spend time with the child before I tend to
them."
Sarek nodded. "Thank you."
T'Rea shook her head. "Gratitude is illogical, Sarek. I acted
in the only logical way open to me. If I did not assist, two lives would
have in jeopardy."
Sarek nodded. "Still, others would not have helped."
"Is there anything more you need from me?"
Sarek looked down at his son, their son, then looked
at Amanda who was watching him with a tired but joyous expression.
"Yes." He walked to Amanda, kneeling beside her to place the
child upon her chest and help her hold him. "There is one more
service we need you to perform."
He looked to T'Rea, who nodded knowingly.
**~~**
Sarek entered his home, the aroma of dinner wafting to him immediately.
He could hear Amanda and their child playing in the next room. A serene
smile spread to his lips for just a moment before he whisked it away and
searched out his family.
Amanda was seated on the floor, holding Spock perched on the edge of the couch,
his shirt pushed up as Amanda repeatedly pressed her
lips against his belly and blew, making their son squeal in delight.
"Which of you enjoys this game more?" Sarek asked from the living
room doorway.
Amanda smiled upon seeing him. "You're home early! Dinner will
be awhile still."
"I am in no rush." Sarek sat on the couch, taking his son in
his arms. "And how was your visit
to the Healer, my son?"
"Right as rain!" Amanda exclaimed. She
moved up to sit beside them. "The Healer was pleased with his
progress. After a slow start he's finally caught up to Vulcan children
his age. And," she reached out to pinch Spock's cheek, "if
you'll recall Spock is six months old today. The age the Healer's said we
could stop worrying about any unexpected complications."
"Yes, I do recall." Sarek leaned forward to place Spock on the
floor with some of his toys then turned towards Amanda. "Which also means as of today we have been married for six months."
Amanda nodded, her expression becoming serious. "Yes, I know.
I've been meaning to talk to you about that. I don't think I've ever
thanked you for what you've done."
"I have done nothing-"
"No," she interrupted. "You have. I know I can't
prove it, but I know that if you hadn't gotten that priestess to marry us they
would have sent me away, and I never would have seen Spock. You gave me
your name, and your home...and our son."
"I gave up nothing—"
She cut him off again. "I just wanted you to know that…if anything
changes…if you need to be free to, you know, move on with your life, I'll
understand. We'll work around it. I don't want to ever become a
burden to you."
"You could never be a burden, Amanda. However."
Sarek looked away, using the pretense of watching
their son at play to form his words carefully, "these past few months with
you here, and with Spock, it has made me realize there was.some...thing
missing in my life. Having a child has made me nearly
complete." He looked back to her. "All I am missing is a
wife."
Amanda nodded sympathetically. "I understand."
Sarek shook his head. "I am not certain you do. Legally
speaking, I do have a wife," his gaze met and held hers, "but she
does not give of herself to me, not all of herself."
Amanda swallowed hard. "Sarek, I…"
Sarek reached up and cupped her cheek in his palm, then pulled her closer,
close enough to kiss though he did not do so. "I have everything I
need within my reach, but I cannot grasp it."
"Tell me what you want from me and it's yours. I owe you
everything."
"I want you in my life, as my wife with all that entails, but not out of
obligation." He moved closer, pressing his lips to hers in human
fashion.
"A woman hardly needs obligation to be in your bed."
"Then I stir you as you do me?"
"Yes," she answered breathlessly.
"And you have found these past months on Vulcan to be tolerable? You
could be fulfilled with an existence such as this?"
Amanda nodded, sliding her hands up his arms and clasping them loosely behind
his neck. She leaned forward and kissed him back.
"Then, tonight, you shall move your things to my room."
Amanda nodded, her breathing growing heavier. "And will you then
make me your wife, officially?"
"Perhaps before tonight," Sarek pushed her back and lay atop of her
intertwining his body with her, their legs, their lips, their tongues.
A small tap on his head pulled his attention, and he glanced up to see his
infant son's face inches from his.
"Oh," Amanda laughed. "We have a visitor. Sarek, do
you know what this means?"
"Yes. Spock needs his own room."
"No, he pulled himself up. Look, he's standing!"
Sarek sat up noticing that, although he held onto the couch for support, his
son was indeed standing. "Yes. Very good,
Spock. Although I do hope his timing will one day
improve." He glanced at Spock, whose toothless grin promised of no
such thing.
The End